I am officially on the downhill side of this journey – Tiger Blood baby!!
But I have to admit, this 3rd week was by far the hardest for me. I’ve narrowed down all the things I hold responsible for my struggles:
- Aunt Flow. She came to town and brought all her cravings with her!
- I ended up eating out a lot, leading straight to temptation central!!
- Food boredom – it officially happened. It wasn’t as if I couldn’t choke down anymore eggs or almond butter, but the novelty of them has definitely worn off.
However, even though this was a difficult week for me I stayed on plan, I didn’t cheat, I made good choices and I’m still going strong!
I did manage to find some new favorites this week:
- Cashew Butter – Since I was starting to get a little bit bored with the almond butter I tried this magical stuff and it turned my world right-side up!! Wholly molly this stuff is amazing!
- Dried Mango Slices – I have been watching my toddler eat fruit snacks for three weeks and I finally got the craving for something chewy and fruit snack-like. These guys fit the bill for a healthy sweet treat.
- 21 Seasoning Salute – This changed up my cauliflower rice game in a serious way! It’s also pretty darn yummy on chicken or meat.
- Roasted Coconut Chips – Again, another switcheroo from shredded unsweetened coconut, but these bad boys eat like chips (which could be dangerous) but sometimes a little crunch is necessary, ya know?
- New Barn Almond Milk – I found an approved almond milk!!! WOO HOO!! This stuff was at Whole Foods and while I’m still fine with coconut milk in my coffee I missed the creaminess that the almond milk brings.
- Broccoli Slaw – I was starting to get super tired of my Healthy 8 Mix so this slaw has been a great substitute and I felt like I was eating a whole new lunch this week!
- Cold Brew Coffee – it has been a crazy hot end of summer here in Central California so the switch to cold brew coffee was welcomed! I usually buy mine local, but this one from Trader Joes is pretty good!
- Potato Starch – I tried a recipe that called for potato starch (which I have never used before) and I loved it! It’s similar to corn starch and is a thickening agent so I have been using it like crazy in all kinds of recipes to make creamy sauces.
- Unsweetened Applesauce – I’ve always been a fan but haven’t had any in a while. So I busted some out during my epic food boredom issue this week and I rekindled my love for unsweetened applesauce, I’m basically a four-year-old in a thirty-somethings body.
So I also have to let you in on a little secret…I’m kinda freaking out that I only have one more week on the plan. Not joking, totally a little bit terrified, for a whole handful of reasons.
First off, I was so hooked on sugar – like full blown addicted, who am I kidding. The thought of incorporating it back into my diet makes me think I’m going to do something like this…
Now I have heard that after a Whole30 sugar doesn’t even taste good, that a regular dessert you once ate will taste way, way too sweet post Whole30. I hope that’s true because I can kind of see it as a slippery slope for me, and I don’t want to go back to needing that substance to function.
I’m afraid the dairy will make me bloated again and I’m loving that I don’t feel that way regularly.
I am a little more than obsessed with not counting calories or points or anything in between. The fact that I can just eat whenever I am hungry – and have as much as I want until I am satisfied…and that it could include avocados and nut butter (two things I used to eat sparingly due to high caloric content) is not only amazing for me, but freeing. For the first time in my life I am realizing that it’s not necessarily calories that make you fat, or eating fatty foods. Its eating sugar and things that are processed that’s the culprit! I can eat a ton of the right foods (whole, healthy food) and feel wonderful. Bringing those things back is just not desirable anymore.
The fact that I haven’t weighed myself in three whole weeks is mind blowing! Not being tied to the scale and forcing myself to look at other measures of success, instead of a number is beyond empowering! I am so fearful to set foot on that piece of plastic again – even though I am dying to know what the outcome of this journey is weight wise.
What if I feel so great and think I look so good after all this, then I step on the scale and see a less than desirable number? In an instant I will have devalued all the hard work I have done – and while I’d like to say I am no longer a slave to the scale, I just don’t think that’s true. So I am torn between being curious of my ending weight and scared it will trigger my obsession.
I am mulling over the idea of extending my program – go longer than 30 days. How long would I go for? I don’t know. Or maybe I due a very slow reintroduction to foods? Not sure yet. I have another week to figure it out thought, so I’ll keep you posted.